May all your hellos be better than your last goodbye

I’m deep in the feel zone today. Blanketed up, dark room, chocolate, emo playlist and typical London grey skies.

I haven’t written in a while. I feel like I’ve kept a lot of feelings inside the last few months. Change is a big deal. And there’s been a lot of that going on here recently. So I’ve moved away from home. Thousands of miles away. I glided into this amazing new job, with an amazing new team and an amazing new boss who recognizes my worth. My visa was sponsored, so it was granted within 3 days of me applying for it. I’ve also had a very senior colleague from South Africa move up to London. And having someone who I respected and admired professionally be in the same office as me, on the same floor, was that extra bit of cushioning that I needed if incase everything ever came crashing down. Altogether, my move here was extremely easy. Too easy. And there were times when I thought that something’s going to happen, something’s going to hit me, to correct the energy balance in my life scale. It cant be all good all the time.

And it hasn’t. These last two weeks have been the worst of my life here in London. And I feel weirdly emotional about it. It’s been an emotionally exhausting week. Because I’ve had to say goodbye to two people who played an integral part of this new chapter of my life. One with fair warning, one with no warning at all.

I’ve read this quote about a dozen times on the Internet. But I’ve never felt it stronger than when I read it today..

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a reason . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a season . . .Because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

I’ll probably delete this post sometime, when the dust has settled and I feel better, and I don’t want to seem vulnerable anymore. So if you’re reading this.. Consider yourself lucky 😈